PMS

Lately, I've been so busy.
Busy with my job, busy with taking care of my family, busy organizing a reunion.
Lately, I have realized, that I have not taken time to get in touch with myself again.
The familiar feeling of not knowing what to do with my life is back. I have lost my goals, I have stopped dreaming. In the past, I can easily bounce back from this. two days is long enough but now, it's been going on for a few days now. I am sad.
I miss going out. I miss my friends. I miss Ted.
I miss my old self.
Why do I always feel this way when I have my period?

Infidelity and Regret

what I don't understand about married men is why they can't seem to be satisfied with their wives after they get married. why didn't they see that "something" missing while they were still in the boyfriend-girlfriend stage?

Then after they get caught, they will feel so sorry and beg their wives to take them back?!

See, they hurt, not only their wives, but their mistresses as well. Do they know how it feels like to be kept hanging and hoping that one day you'll be together? No! All they know is that they are having fun while their wives are faithfully waiting on them. They know that if they get caught or the other woman comes to her senses and leaves them - their wives would take them back.

I think, that if you decide to be unfaithful to your partner, you should own up to it.

don't look like a lost puppy when everyone leaves you. You have to be prepared to face the consequences and don't ever regret the choices you made!

or better yet. do not be unfaithful at all!

Corny, Boring, Plain Alive

From Monday to Friday, I wake up at around 6 a.m. and try to listen to the morning rush. Chico and Delamar are so funny, unfortunately, i have no radio on my cellphone so I can't listen to them everyday. Instead of bearing with the radio jocks of the stations most jeepneys listen to, I sleep. Everyday, I am late but I never forget to eat rice for breakfast. I start my class at 8 a.m.
At 11:30 a.m. I dismiss my class and turn on the radio to listen to the RORO show. I like Rico Robles' voice and Jude Rocha reminds me of someone. I have no interest in basketball except when I bet in the "ending." I react through twitter to their topics while I play Plants vs. Zombies. Then I'll check Farmville, Cafe World, and Pet Society in Facebook as I check newsletters and journals on the side. I'm not a multi-tasking queen but I can try if I really want to.
By 3:30, I make sure that I have worksheets for my tutees. I brush my teeth and prepare to leave by 4 and from 5 to 8 I tutor kids. I get home at around 9 p.m. so that I could sit in front of the TV and watch PBB. Oh! I forgot to mention that I am a Melason fan and sometimes I fight anonymous people in the net to defend Melai while I do the rest of the Facebook apps.

Everyday, this is my routine. I don't do anything new. I don't believe my friends even remember me. Before I sleep, I stay awake, thinking how corny and boring my existence is. I am not living. I am just plain alive.

Saturdays and Sundays are a bore as well.