I know I need to rest.I can feel my eyes drooping.
I also know I have to finish some things. I can hear the clock ticking.
But here I am, once again, complaining and letting the lazy hormones take over. My life has turned into a vicious cycle and I thought I have found out what is wrong. But still, things are the same. I always come back to this point -the point where I just want to stare at an empty computer screen or play facebook games or daydream about my Korean and Japanese crushes.
Why oh why am I like this? I have stated it over and over that I want to change my ways. My spirit is willing but my body is weak. Do I need to consult a doctor? Do I need special medicine?
I will get through this. I will get my mojo back.
I just hope this time, I could hold it for a much longer time.
Friday, August 30, 2013
Monday, August 26, 2013
Laban Pa!
It's back to the real world tomorrow!
Aaarrrgghhh!!!
I only did half of what I was supposed to do and I am quite nervous because I know I would be cramming again in the next few days. I hate the feeling of not having enough time. I hope I could still finish what I need to finish. I still have a week to go before La Salle's final exam and I hope I can make the worksheets as smoothly as I was able to make the others while still attending to my daily tasks in school.
I am serious about getting the best result and giving my all in all the tasks that I need to do.I am serious about changing my ways.
So I will not lose that determination, no matter how hard it is to hold on to it.Laban pa!
Aaarrrgghhh!!!
I only did half of what I was supposed to do and I am quite nervous because I know I would be cramming again in the next few days. I hate the feeling of not having enough time. I hope I could still finish what I need to finish. I still have a week to go before La Salle's final exam and I hope I can make the worksheets as smoothly as I was able to make the others while still attending to my daily tasks in school.
I am serious about getting the best result and giving my all in all the tasks that I need to do.I am serious about changing my ways.
So I will not lose that determination, no matter how hard it is to hold on to it.Laban pa!
Sunday, August 25, 2013
Mom's Special Day
We celebrated Mom's birthday today. The smile on her face is priceless.
We had brunch and we gave her our gift. The kids ran around, we enjoyed our meal. Overall, it was one fine day for the family.
And I hope we'll have more days like this.
Happy Birthday Mom!
We had brunch and we gave her our gift. The kids ran around, we enjoyed our meal. Overall, it was one fine day for the family.
And I hope we'll have more days like this.
Happy Birthday Mom!
Friday, August 23, 2013
Ningas-Kugon Family
Waaaahhhhh!!!
That long vacation resurrected my lazy bone!Just thinking about the amount of work I need to do makes me want to lie down and sleep all day. I need some physical and mental power to do what I need to do. I have to do my job or else I wouldn't be able to buy something, no, a lot of things that I need to and want to buy.
Why am I like this?
I am suffering from a bad case of "ningas-kugon." I was so excited, enthusiastic, and determined at the beginning but my fire seems to die out in the middle of any project that I am doing. No wonder I can't finish a decent novel, my output is mediocre, and my successes are half baked. I want to bang my head on the wall right now. How do I keep the fire burning?
Now I realize that this is actually an inherited trait. My Dad and my uncles are all talented and smart. They are not really lazy but they are only good in beginning projects. They always fail to follow through. No wonder we did not become rich. Now, I am doing the same thing. The Tiamzon males have passed on that ningas-kugon gene to me, my cousin Mitzi, and even my older sister.
It's time to break off the tradition, jump off the band wagon and start changing this bad habit. Yes! I will work! =)
That long vacation resurrected my lazy bone!Just thinking about the amount of work I need to do makes me want to lie down and sleep all day. I need some physical and mental power to do what I need to do. I have to do my job or else I wouldn't be able to buy something, no, a lot of things that I need to and want to buy.
Why am I like this?
I am suffering from a bad case of "ningas-kugon." I was so excited, enthusiastic, and determined at the beginning but my fire seems to die out in the middle of any project that I am doing. No wonder I can't finish a decent novel, my output is mediocre, and my successes are half baked. I want to bang my head on the wall right now. How do I keep the fire burning?
Now I realize that this is actually an inherited trait. My Dad and my uncles are all talented and smart. They are not really lazy but they are only good in beginning projects. They always fail to follow through. No wonder we did not become rich. Now, I am doing the same thing. The Tiamzon males have passed on that ningas-kugon gene to me, my cousin Mitzi, and even my older sister.
It's time to break off the tradition, jump off the band wagon and start changing this bad habit. Yes! I will work! =)
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Just Thinking
Amidst the unpredictable rain and the fear of being flooded, many of my online friends were busy lashing out at the congressmen and senators involved in the pork barrel scam. Not being interested in politics, I just ignored many posts and commentaries about the issue and focused on living my life and doing what I usually do, work.
But this is not to say that I have turned apathetic. I am concerned too, I have kept myself informed. As an ordinary citizen, what can I do? I want to say that I am too busy living my own life to care. Yes, I am indeed very busy. But I care. I am affected by this issue because I live in this country. But what else can I do but read, listen, and speak up if necessary.
How can people be that selfish and greedy?
Millions of people are working hard to earn. How can they sleep soundly on their soft beds and air conditioned rooms knowing that they stole all those money from people who haven't slept for days working? Do they even care if people die because of poverty?
It makes my head ache just thinking of all these questions.
I have lost the idealism of youth to believe that change is possible. I was too young to understand EDSA 1 and I was one of the many who participated in EDSA Dos. Nothing happened, the same people are still in power. Somehow, I could only pray that a Messiah would come to save this country.
But this is not to say that I have turned apathetic. I am concerned too, I have kept myself informed. As an ordinary citizen, what can I do? I want to say that I am too busy living my own life to care. Yes, I am indeed very busy. But I care. I am affected by this issue because I live in this country. But what else can I do but read, listen, and speak up if necessary.
How can people be that selfish and greedy?
Millions of people are working hard to earn. How can they sleep soundly on their soft beds and air conditioned rooms knowing that they stole all those money from people who haven't slept for days working? Do they even care if people die because of poverty?
It makes my head ache just thinking of all these questions.
I have lost the idealism of youth to believe that change is possible. I was too young to understand EDSA 1 and I was one of the many who participated in EDSA Dos. Nothing happened, the same people are still in power. Somehow, I could only pray that a Messiah would come to save this country.
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Proud to be a Filipino
The flood waters rose higher earlier this afternoon. Many of the places south of Manila were flooded. I was a bit calm yesterday, thinking that we are safe since we are in the east but I was woken up by my Mom around twelve in the afternoon making the memories of Ondoy come back. We immediately transferred our things to higher places and kept watch. The water is about an inch away from our door. I silently said a prayer, asking God not to let the past happen to us again.
God is good.
Not long after, the rain stopped and the flood subsided.
It did not enter our house, we are all safe and dry.
And it is true, the Filipino spirit is waterproof. We are in a country where storms are regular and flooding is almost a regular occurrence. We cannot avoid it and although it is true that we are partly to blame for not taking care of our environment, many of us have found ways to adjust. Countless footage of Filipinos helping one another are airing in news programs and circulating in social media. During trying times like this, the world can see how our people help one another, how people swimming in flood water still manage to smile and how resourceful and creative we can get.
I am truly proud to be a Filipino.
God is good.
Not long after, the rain stopped and the flood subsided.
It did not enter our house, we are all safe and dry.
And it is true, the Filipino spirit is waterproof. We are in a country where storms are regular and flooding is almost a regular occurrence. We cannot avoid it and although it is true that we are partly to blame for not taking care of our environment, many of us have found ways to adjust. Countless footage of Filipinos helping one another are airing in news programs and circulating in social media. During trying times like this, the world can see how our people help one another, how people swimming in flood water still manage to smile and how resourceful and creative we can get.
I am truly proud to be a Filipino.
Monday, August 19, 2013
Rainy Day Musings
It rained nonstop last night...
I wasn't able to sleep.
The memories of Ondoy and last year's Habagat have taught me a lot not to be lax in this kind of weather. I am calm but I am vigilant.
The sky is clearing a little, thank God. Now, I am planning to work on a lot of things. Work - naturally. I haven't been writing a lot lately and it seems my interest is waning. My schedule is so jam packed, I cannot squeeze in my characters. I haven't cooked anything new in a while as well. And though I have printed patterns, I haven't started on a new amigurumi projects. I still find time to watch Korean and Japanese dramas and movies though. However, I watch while checking papers and making worksheets.
There are so many things I want to do but right now, I need to earn a lot first. I am trying to enjoy what I do and trying my best not to get stressed out over small matters. I am also trying to sleep earlier and eat healthier. I am doing my best to save some money to buy the things I want to reward myself with.
It's time to go up. I have experienced how it was like to be down, I have nowhere to go but up. My family will experience happiness now. God will take care of us.
Just like the rain, everything is washed out to make way for the new. Things will be good. The world will be better.
I wasn't able to sleep.
The memories of Ondoy and last year's Habagat have taught me a lot not to be lax in this kind of weather. I am calm but I am vigilant.
The sky is clearing a little, thank God. Now, I am planning to work on a lot of things. Work - naturally. I haven't been writing a lot lately and it seems my interest is waning. My schedule is so jam packed, I cannot squeeze in my characters. I haven't cooked anything new in a while as well. And though I have printed patterns, I haven't started on a new amigurumi projects. I still find time to watch Korean and Japanese dramas and movies though. However, I watch while checking papers and making worksheets.
There are so many things I want to do but right now, I need to earn a lot first. I am trying to enjoy what I do and trying my best not to get stressed out over small matters. I am also trying to sleep earlier and eat healthier. I am doing my best to save some money to buy the things I want to reward myself with.
It's time to go up. I have experienced how it was like to be down, I have nowhere to go but up. My family will experience happiness now. God will take care of us.
Just like the rain, everything is washed out to make way for the new. Things will be good. The world will be better.
Thursday, August 8, 2013
A Rock to Lean On
It's another sort of a hell week for me once more.
Hell week is the term we used to use in college to refer to the last few weeks of a semester. The time when we need to rush reports, submit papers and take really difficult exams.
It is almost the end of the first quarter for most schools, including us. I am so dizzy preparing exam papers and reviewers for my students. To top it all there are certain issues I have to deal with in my family and colleagues at work. I can't wait for the hoolabaloo to be over so that I can go back to my life of predictable events and boring routines.
Well, actually, I am fine with the way things are. I can still manage and since I am the master of cramming, I still have grace under all these pressures. I have always been saying this and I don't want to sound like a hypocrite but praying really helps a lot. When moments come that I don't know where to start or I am feeling so low I want to just run away from everything - the knowledge that God is here to help me out calms me. When worries rock my world, He gives me assurance that everything has a reason and I will come out as a winner each time. When unexpected blows shake me, He holds me tight and reminds me that I have been through much worse.
So even if I am currently under pressure, having a lot of worries, and being shaken by unexpected events - I have a rock to lean on.
Hell week is the term we used to use in college to refer to the last few weeks of a semester. The time when we need to rush reports, submit papers and take really difficult exams.
It is almost the end of the first quarter for most schools, including us. I am so dizzy preparing exam papers and reviewers for my students. To top it all there are certain issues I have to deal with in my family and colleagues at work. I can't wait for the hoolabaloo to be over so that I can go back to my life of predictable events and boring routines.
Well, actually, I am fine with the way things are. I can still manage and since I am the master of cramming, I still have grace under all these pressures. I have always been saying this and I don't want to sound like a hypocrite but praying really helps a lot. When moments come that I don't know where to start or I am feeling so low I want to just run away from everything - the knowledge that God is here to help me out calms me. When worries rock my world, He gives me assurance that everything has a reason and I will come out as a winner each time. When unexpected blows shake me, He holds me tight and reminds me that I have been through much worse.
So even if I am currently under pressure, having a lot of worries, and being shaken by unexpected events - I have a rock to lean on.
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