Going Back

This storm is crazy.

The wind is literally whooshing and I can hear the sound hitting the windows. it's a bit scary but it also feels good to take a break from the almost toasting weather last summer. I just hope the floods won't be too bad because I still have family and friends living near the river.

I was expecting that classes will be suspended today but apparently the local government thinks the kids can handle the wind. Anyway as long as nobody gets hurt many parents will not be disappointed with the decision.

We've been living in the new house for more than a week now. So much has happened but I don't want to recount all of them. I hated the drama and the false accusations, I just want to have peace and pretend nothing happened. Once I have arranged all my things and felt 100% settled, I would continue with the quest I have. the quest to be a better person.

I was watching one episode of House M.D. last night. I have learned a lot of things in this series, not only about medicine but also about human nature. For instance, I am a firm believer that everybody lies. The episode particularly said that "People Don't Change." I know that's quite a dark way of looking at things but there are just some people who just makes you give up on them. Even if you have given them dozens even hundreds of chances, they just don't value that opportunity to be better.

Change really comes from within and it's not an easy process. I know it's hard but I guess I am unchangeable this way. I believe in the natural goodness of people.

I Missed This!

I missed blogging so much I want to cry. huhuhuhuwaaaahhhhh

The laptop is not working fine. I had too much work here in school to ever find the time to write here.

A lot happened during the past week. Things are calming down and hopefully they will get better. I miss my Paolo, my Marco, and even my Murphy. I miss being optimistic, making plans and daydreaming. I hope I can find to do all of these things soon.

So anyway, I just borrowed some time. I am still at work and I need to get back on track. Tomorrow, I will perhaps write a longer entry than this one.

The Fifth Place

We have moved in to a new place and I'm lovin' it.

it's more spacious. There's more fresh air and there are no neighbors who are singing in the middle of the night. The best part is we are just beside Jackie and Coy's place and we can easily see the kids.

It's still messy and I am still thinking of what to put and where to put them. I am excited. I just wish we'll have some extra cash so that we can start decorating.

Cheers to our fifth place!

Just Another Day

I am not in a nice mood. I want to scream in anger and I am struggling to keep my composure. I have deadlines to meet and they are ruined because of some overlook from people I am depending on. This is way overdue and I hate it when my plans don't push through because of some people who lack consideration.

But I don't want to ruin my day just because of it. I am trying to just do my job. I want to smile and forget the fact that my money is running out right now which should not be the case. I have a lot money coming soon and I am planning to give myself a treat. I will buy new jeans and a blouse and eat something I like.

It will just be another day.

Need to. Have to.

It's another Monday. I came in two minutes late. The class went smoothly and now I am accomplishing my to do list one by one. There's still a lot to be done and a lot to think about but I badly need a break right now.

I am too bloated. I think I ate a lot again.

I really want to lose weight. Badly want to. It's just hard to resist the temptation of eating everything in sight. Everything seems so yummy and appealing. I need to burn these calories but I can't find the time to exercise. I have a lot of things to type and my tutorials are also done sitting down.

Just like those monthly meeting with friends, I will oblige myself to do this. I owe this to myself. I deserve to feel good, have great health, and look beautiful.

Friends and Getting Older

It was another night spent with my gay friends. i missed them so much and it felt so good to spend some time with them. The old conversations, the laughter, the fun - it was simply great.

We have been friends for a long time already and have formed bonds that are strong as they were. Ted's passing made that bond stronger. We all reminisced those times that we had with him and we still feel that sadness and pain though the tears are gone now. It's been almost four years since he left us and we still cling on to those memories. How we used to bring the house down at Ted's place, the lessons we learned from him and the good things he did for us.

Just like Gladys and Ana, they all want to do this regularly. I guess when you're getting older, your desire to get in touch regularly becomes stronger. When we're together it seems only yesterday when we were all stupid and crazy. The company of good friends makes us all feel younger.

So I guess, I have to find time for these wonderful people that god blessed me with. I always find reasons not to go to gatherings. Now, it's time to make this a duty. We all need each other. We all have to find time.

A Salute to the King of Comedy

Another week has passed.

It's not as perfect as the previous ones. But I could say that it was okay since I was able to make a lot of tasks.

I am just sad because of Dolphy passing away. I want to watch all his movies all over again and have a rerun of "Home Along Da Riles." I grew up watching his movies, my Dad was a big fan. He can still make me laugh even if I am already grown up.

This is how I always feel when an icon passes away. I can't get over the fact that they are not there anymore. It seems unreal.

I hope his soul finds peace. His legacy will continue and he will always be the only king of Philippine comedy.



Thank you Mang Dolphy. For all the laughs and all the smiles and the countless times you've touched my heart.