It's another Saturday for me in this side of the planet. 6:34 p.m. The sun has just set, the night has begun. I am stuck here at home with no plans. I wonder if my friends would insist on meeting up. We were planning to last week but work intervened and here I am now - nganga!
So I guess I will be back to watching whatever is available on the internet. Itazura na Kiss Love in Tokyo wrapped up last week and I am not in the mood to watch Fabulous Boys. Perhaps I'll watch Hana Yori Dango from the beginning again and fall in love with Tsukushi and Tsukasa's love story once more.
And work, yes, I will do some work so that when Monday comes, I wouldn't feel like I have wasted my weekend. I will be very busy with whatever work is available and try to come up with more money making schemes so that one day I can publish any of my stories. I do hope I can finish all those novels I started and be able to come up with characters who can touch other people's lives.
Gaaaahhhhh!!!! I miss my friends. In real life, nobody else can be as colorful as they are.
Saturday, July 27, 2013
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Stricken by JPop
There are two Japanese songs that strike a chord in me.
When I first listened to them, it was as if they were my songs. I felt overly emotional and I couldn't explain why. It's definitely not because of the current issue I am facing or because I suddenly remembered Tsukushi and Tsukasa's love story (yes, the songs are both from Hana Yori Dango). It was as if my chest is, not heavy, there's a tinge of pain and happiness. Maybe this is what they call, bittersweet feeling. I really can't find the words to describe it.
Now I am playing them over and over until I get tired of them or until I can sing to them even if my knowledge of the Japanese Language is very limited. I desperately want to fall in love again. Here are the songs.
1. Planetarium by Ai Otsuka
2. Kiss Hug by Aiko
When I first listened to them, it was as if they were my songs. I felt overly emotional and I couldn't explain why. It's definitely not because of the current issue I am facing or because I suddenly remembered Tsukushi and Tsukasa's love story (yes, the songs are both from Hana Yori Dango). It was as if my chest is, not heavy, there's a tinge of pain and happiness. Maybe this is what they call, bittersweet feeling. I really can't find the words to describe it.
Now I am playing them over and over until I get tired of them or until I can sing to them even if my knowledge of the Japanese Language is very limited. I desperately want to fall in love again. Here are the songs.
1. Planetarium by Ai Otsuka
2. Kiss Hug by Aiko
Unexpected
I never expected that I would be emotional.
It was good news actually, a blessing but with it comes a lot of problems. I am worried more for my Mom's well being than any one else. Just when things are about to get better for this family, this came. I know God has a reason, I am having difficulty accepting it right now, my Mom too, but we will. In His Time.
I just can't put a finger to what I am feeling right now. Yes I am disappointed, I feel like I don't have the guts to face some people, I pity the person involved, I am worried about the future. The hodgepodge of emotions is making it more difficult for me to focus and do my job well. The kids sensed it this morning and they were extra monstrous.
Now I understand how other people feel.
It was good news actually, a blessing but with it comes a lot of problems. I am worried more for my Mom's well being than any one else. Just when things are about to get better for this family, this came. I know God has a reason, I am having difficulty accepting it right now, my Mom too, but we will. In His Time.
I just can't put a finger to what I am feeling right now. Yes I am disappointed, I feel like I don't have the guts to face some people, I pity the person involved, I am worried about the future. The hodgepodge of emotions is making it more difficult for me to focus and do my job well. The kids sensed it this morning and they were extra monstrous.
Now I understand how other people feel.
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Happy Sunday =)
I went to church but was not able to complete the mass. Though in the few minutes that I stayed, I felt that God sent His message.
The reading was about the sisters Martha and Mary and how Martha complained to Jesus that her sister is not helping her. The priest did a good way of interpreting, only, it took a little too long. There are different ways of serving God, who are we to say which one is the right way. Only God can tell us if we only listen to what He is trying to tell us.
And sometimes, we are too busy spending time with different things that we tend to overlook what is more essential.
It's a difficult task. With all the information and ideas we are exposed to right now, it is hard to find which one weighs more. Listening to our hearts can be tricky as well because our hearts have the tendency to be biased. Thinking about is not the answer as well because our knowledge is limited.
We need God's help to show us what is important, the right way to do things. His message and answers will reach us somehow if we keep our hearts and our minds open.
The reading was about the sisters Martha and Mary and how Martha complained to Jesus that her sister is not helping her. The priest did a good way of interpreting, only, it took a little too long. There are different ways of serving God, who are we to say which one is the right way. Only God can tell us if we only listen to what He is trying to tell us.
And sometimes, we are too busy spending time with different things that we tend to overlook what is more essential.
It's a difficult task. With all the information and ideas we are exposed to right now, it is hard to find which one weighs more. Listening to our hearts can be tricky as well because our hearts have the tendency to be biased. Thinking about is not the answer as well because our knowledge is limited.
We need God's help to show us what is important, the right way to do things. His message and answers will reach us somehow if we keep our hearts and our minds open.
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Limited
I was supposed to meet up with the gays today but I turned down the invitation. Honestly I miss them and I really, really want to see them but Alex's place is so far away I had to say no. I know I promised I am going to make time for my social life but I also had to consider my physical well being. Traveling is exhausting. Apart from that, I would be smoking and drinking too much. Also, I had a few things I need to finish. So I think it is best to hope for the next time.
One of my cousins passed away last night. I just feel really bad because a lot of people left this year. I was about to write my thoughts on death when Cory Monteith died last Sunday but decided against it due to my superstitious nature. But I guess somehow, these things are some realities we hate to see and admit. Everybody dies. That is one fact of life we cannot change. We can avoid it, we can escape it for a while but somewhere down the road we will all face it.
This reminds me of Paulo Coelho's book, "Veronika Decided to Die." I can't remember who said it but it goes something like we can't appreciate life without being aware of death.
I guess this is God's way of showing us that we have a limited time on Earth. we live on borrowed time. We have to make use of this the best way we can. He had given us so many gifts and we must not waste them. We have gifts of family, friends, and some of us even love. We have our health, we have our intelligence, we have our abilities. All of these are here for us to make use of, to create something good, to leave our mark and our legacy.
So we must all strive to be better people, to serve others, to share our love.
One of my cousins passed away last night. I just feel really bad because a lot of people left this year. I was about to write my thoughts on death when Cory Monteith died last Sunday but decided against it due to my superstitious nature. But I guess somehow, these things are some realities we hate to see and admit. Everybody dies. That is one fact of life we cannot change. We can avoid it, we can escape it for a while but somewhere down the road we will all face it.
This reminds me of Paulo Coelho's book, "Veronika Decided to Die." I can't remember who said it but it goes something like we can't appreciate life without being aware of death.
I guess this is God's way of showing us that we have a limited time on Earth. we live on borrowed time. We have to make use of this the best way we can. He had given us so many gifts and we must not waste them. We have gifts of family, friends, and some of us even love. We have our health, we have our intelligence, we have our abilities. All of these are here for us to make use of, to create something good, to leave our mark and our legacy.
So we must all strive to be better people, to serve others, to share our love.
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