Envy

Envy is one of the seven deadly sins and now I understand why.

I know someone who was driven by her extreme envy that led her into doing things which were out of her character. She stole money and stole somebody's fiance. She weaved an intricate web of lies that only became her own trap. Now, she is the laughing stock of everyone. She has no idea that all the people she is trying to fool can see through her. The guy she stole is back in his fiancee's arms and told her in her face that she stole his money. Now she is trying to seduce another guy but that guy seems to see her for what she truly is.

Looking at what she is going through made me realize and see how deadly envy can be.

I had my share of envy, especially when I was much younger. Growing up and learning to face my demons helped me shake off the excessive envy that I used to carry around me. I have learned to accept my flaws and improve on them. I have learned to accept that all those material things I desire, I can work hard to get them. I think I heard this from Rico Robles, his father taught him not to envy but to work hard to get the things he wants.

You see, all of us, want to have a better life. In any aspect whether financially, socially or even intellectually. Sometimes we can't help but want what other people have. However, we have to be aware of our limits. It's okay to work hard for something similar but to steal something from other people is a different thing. It's okay to be accused of being a copycat or "gaya-gaya" than being a thief.

Well, the story of that girl is quite complicated. And I would rather leave her alone to make her realize her mistake because she is not a kid to be advised. Besides, knowing her, she would only turn the tables against me and accuse me of being envious of her.

I am writing this now to remind myself, in case I envy someone in the future, I would think of her and see how envy is slowly killing her.

Hello 2014!

It's three days before I go back to work. And yes, as usual, I am not yet in the mood to go back. There are a lot of reasons and one of them is my number one problem: laziness. I am still feeling lazy and no matter how many self motivation techniques I use, I still feel the same.

Anyway, I know myself too well. I might be feeling like this today but tomorrow will be a totally new day. Things will be good and 2014 will be better.

This year, I have decided not to write my resolutions here. Maybe there will be a bigger chance of me sticking to them if I have it in a place which I can access regularly. I haven't completed my list yet and I will not put too much pressure on myself. I will just do what I can.

2014 is the year of the horse, my year. And I would like to believe that this will be a good year.=)

Two Days before Resolutions

2013 is about to say goodbye. And yes, I am thinking of resolutions and I can't even imagine how I would carry them out.

But it is a tradition that I do every year and as I said before, I rarely make them come true. This year, I want it to be different. I would set my standards higher and I would gather more courage, determination, and dedication. I would motivate myself to make them come true no matter how hard because honestly, every year I am getting more and more of them come true. Because I finally realized that the only thing I need to have is that self drive.

So anyway, I still have two days. Till then, by then - it will be good.

Well, I checked my January entry for 2013 and darn! I was able to do about 50% of each of them. Meaning: I have started well and ended up badly. My ningas kugon gene is at work I might as well get rid of it.

Merry Christmas!

Christmas is over. And yes, I felt the spirit two days or maybe a week before the actual day came. I spent it with the kids and my family. Though I was not able to meet up with my dear friends, we were able to send our greetings via text and social media.

Below are some of the highlights of my pre-Christmas and Christmas celebrations.

1. The children's Christmas Party (December 16, 2013)

It was the usual day of fun, games, food sharing and gift giving.

2. The teachers' Christmas Party (December 17, 2013)

We ate out. It's actually my second plate. =)

3. The Christmas Program (December 18, 2013)

Quite tiring actually but worth it.

4. Noche Buena (December 24, 2013)

I made Korean bbq and buffalo wings.

5. Christmas Day (December 25, 2013)

Great day with family!

The New Year is about to come.

So far, 2013 has been good to me personally but quite trying for my country.

We are all hoping that 2014 will be good to all of us. =)

Waiting for it

Christmas season is here.

But I am not really feeling it.

The disasters that hit our country in the past months make us feel somewhat guilty about celebrating the Holidays lavishly. It is already the second week of December but I don't see a lot of people going to the malls. Many companies cancelled their Christmas parties and even some did not give bonuses. I am happy that we are doing our parts in helping those who were affected by the recent calamities. I am not complaining, it's actually a better way of celebrating, it just feels different.

I think I just got older. Unlike when I was a kid when I used to receive all those presents and feel the cold air - I am the one giving gifts and climate change ruined the Christmas breeze.

It will be better I know, after all, the real meaning of Christmas is not just merrymaking and all those commercial stuff. I'd feel it and I'd be happy.

humdrum

Aaaarrrrggghhhh!!!

This is one of those days.

Days when I am so stressed out that the feeling of pressure suddenly turns to apathy. I am blanking out and I want to abandon work all together and just relax. I really want to go to a beach, lie on the sand and immerse myself in lukewarm seawater. I want to watch hot shirtless guys run around while I silently wish that they notice me.

Well... I can only wish.

I have tons of paper work, Christmas planning is also underway, exams are also here and there. I have started some of them. And yes, I am planning to use my Flash power to finish all of them. I know I can do them, I am a buzzer beater remember. I get my power when I can hear the clock ticking loudly.

I just wish that my marriage wouldn't be the same. =)

Weaning

It's already Friday.

Yes. I have spent my entire sembreak watching Korean dramas. I don't feel really bad bout it. I was able to rest and enjoy but it's school time soon and I would have to accustom myself to my old routine once more.

So now, I am in the process of weaning. I am trying to stay away from anything Korean or Japanese and I am going back to my dear Doctor Reid and enjoy Ted Mosby's company. PerhapsI can watch "Notting Hill" again and just feel giddy about having a celebrity come accidentally into my life.

I have to do this now and I have to go back to my old sleeping pattern lest I end up like a zombie in my first week back to work.